just another day

just another day yep, just another day. did get to the grocers for much needed food, now that there is a paycheck it makes shopping easier. i worked the usual 11p-7a. while working tonight, i got Yee Yah's home school lessons ready for the week. i will be sleeping so daddy-o will be instructing today. there are instructions as what to do and what to say.i am irritated that i have to go back to work. i thought things were going so well. i liked being at home, i was just starting to get into a routine with the new baby and bang. back to work.i am not sure what the lesson to be learned is yet, so i ponder and pray for guidance and understanding and acceptance.it is hard for me not to bitter with daddy-o, it is not his fault that i got a job before he did. he feels guilty. all of the children are having a hard time adjusting, three weeks into a job and things are still in upheaval. well, what did i expect? life would remain the same forever? that is not the way things work. as for now i wait for my relief to come and record my thoughts so that i can process all this junk.